"Plant Your Roots In Me"

"I won't scatter your sorrow to the heartless sea. I will always be with you. Plant your roots in me. I won't see you end as ashes. You're all diamonds. 

Damnit Kogima! You've done it again. You've pulled my heartstrings and made me cry. Another quote that will forever be stuck with me.

This is why I love Metal Gear.....

Also yes, I am playing MGS V after a year it was released. I bought the collectors edition but I wasn't able to play it at all for a whole year since I was living in Japan at the time for work (more on that in another blog... tons to write about btw), and then when I moved back to Montreal to live with my parents after my visa expired my parents sold the house and decided to move to Toronto so they can help me with university (free housing for me).

So only now am I able to play this game and I'm having a one-year late reaction. This whole entire time I've been avoiding spoilers and I don't know how I did it.

Anywho, I'm not done playing this game yet. I have a couple of missions to do left. I'll write a review soon about my opinion of MGSV comparing to all MGS games, but though I am having fun playing this game there is one thing that is lacking. Normally I would play Metal Gear with my best friend Louis as tradition; but now since I live in Toronto, it's impossible =( 

It's not all too sad lol. Louis is here with me in intel spirit. Guiding me via facebook messenger whenever I need help, or his opinion or just someone to virtually hold my hand when I'm panicking cause I'm dealing with stressful stuff in the game. 

Also, speaking about Louis and MGS I got a tattoo!!! More on that next time. 

It's 3:05 am T.T I am exhausted.

It's the Bitch of Living

Do you think I want this? Oh who knows...

"It's the bitch of living, living in your head"

Walk in the Rain

"In the rain, why do I feel so alone? For some reason I think of home."

Well, I haven't written a post in a while. I have lots to explain and many adventures to share but, at this moment I sorta feel... cold. I'm actually physically cold in the hottest month in Canada, August. I am literally shaking as I'm typing this; and no it is not because of the central AC my family and I have in our apartment because I normally sleep to this shit.

No I think the reason why I'm so cold is because I stumbled in reading something I probably wasn't supposed to read in the first place.

I read someone's personal blog; where this person treats it like it's his own diary. Which hey! If you're reading this, this is also my diary!!! I mean whose reading this really? if your that person I'm talking about right now though... hi sorry.

Anyways, I read one of his recent posts and things looked pretty normal until I got around where he blogged about the soundtracks of Cowboy Bebop.

I am not gonna go into detail about this post because it's probably confidential but, I was shocked. And that shockness turned into sadness, and that sadness almost lead me into a dark place I've been avoiding.

You're probably mad that you're not getting the big picture about this post, but you possibly have an idea and I'm still having problems.

I just needed to release these sad, weird and physical problems out of my body somehow to gain a bit of sanity.

The one thing I will say though, as a sorta reply to this person's blog post is:

My favourite song from Cowboy Bebop is "Rain."  This is the song that got me into Cowboy Bebop but, the reason why I'm too attached to this song is because it relates to me. This song is dark and you can clearly hear it. I was 16 at the time and I was introduced to "Rain" by a Let's Player that doesn't exist anymore. Each time I was down, I would always seemed to remind myself that I should go to this song and just let it all out. I would sing and cry each time I listened to it; and today was no exception. 

Till this day, I still remember the lyrics.

I stopped shaking... I'm fine now...